Scalpel, stat

This will end up as a part of something larger, I think. But here it is for now, in all its unfinished, unpolished glory.
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He was already moving before the cold clink of ceramic had signaled a disaster. He snatched up the manuscript and ran to the paper cutter on his design table. Only the bottom, right corner of the paper had been contaminated so far, but it was leaching upward and outward, like blood on a white t-shirt. He placed the stack on the cutter, positioned it as exactly as his haste would allow and sheared the offending corner from the rest of his valuable work. He held the manuscript aloft and fluffed the pages, satisfied that he had caught the infection in time. He felt like a surgeon, having successfully removed a nonessential limb before the cancer had a chance to spread. He would treat himself to a celebratory bourbon.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Souls of Mischief, 93 'til Infinity

A living room

Each deep breath is only a draft,
a tickling of hairs on the backs of our necks,
a phantom insect crawling in circles.
Each laden word is only a fraying edge of the rug,
spooling off into its own consequences
and choking the vacuum we've earned -
nothing will come up clean, tonight.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
The Dodos, Confidence

Detach

A new worldview has been commissioned.
It will be a singular lens, an uninvited,
glaring eyeball into the convulsing soul
of the world - and what it sees will horrify us.

To ignore so many significant things,
it takes something equally paramount -
they can call it politics, or faith, or ideology.
Science has another name: the singularity.

Here is where we dump our unneeded,
here is where we discard our anchors and chains,
here is where everything we'd like to ignore
is swallowed up and lost to failing memory.

And so it is proven that each choice, so stark
and so significant, is just one twig on one branch
of one thick arm on the largest of all trees:
Zoom out and see for yourself how small you are.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Lucius, Turn It Around

Better days

Herein lie the ashes of a memory,
carried by hearsay and worn pencils,
borne in fading notebooks and tattered journals.

See it now, spilled out and scattered.
See it now, huddled in the corner of the room,
nervous, sweating through its clothes.

See it now, angry and clouding,
bursting to and fro across the state -
an insatiable dervish of discontent.

See it now, exhausted and defeated,
panting against the side of a brick building,
breathing itself in and out, in and out.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Jake Bugg, There's A Beast and We All Feed It

And a world

It's been twelve years, and her porcelain is beginning to crack. All the edges frayed like an aging art class project, decaying paper mache and crinkling acrylic paint. She remembers the artistry of the old days. The days when her son was small enough to hold, too small to punch angsty holes in his bedroom door. The days when her husband spent equal time at work and at home (it was just so busy, he told her - always so busy) and when he wouldn't come home smelling like perfume. She remembers when the fog eased at night and lifted in the mornings, emotions clear to sail. She remembers when the car moved without grumbling, stopped without screaming into the dead night air of the empty neighborhood. She remembers when their house was a project, not a chore. She remembers when her eyes wouldn't flicker in mid-afternoon, alone on the couch, Oprah droning on above her. She remembers a life that could convince her to keep living, and a world that could keep her afloat.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Kendrick Lamar, Sing About Me, I'm Dying of Thirst

We've been profound

I've sent you directions
to the nearest watering hole.
Meet me there at ten -
we'll take three random thoughts,
throw them together
and call the splash a poem,
the ripples a manifesto,
and keep the stray droplets
as tearful, heartfelt memoirs.
When our glasses hold
nothing but a breath of smoke,
order another round and escape
without ever paying our bill.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Big K.R.I.T., R.E.M.

The hero fantasy

Day Thirty: Patchwork poetry - piecing together a line or phrase from each of my last 29 poems, which I think is a very fitting way to end the month.

Conspirators abound, and history
ties their black hearts together.
There is a world behind the glass,
all this fullness of thought,
comfort in the shade of an old pine
and loophole avoidance.
We hear it through the walls, so dry and thin,
there, something dying,
emptying into an ocean.
Where did the first flake fall?
And what, then, is the worth
of an empty pair of shoes?
Now the divine is real -
the grandest mystery borne
in the arms of lovers or
the mouths of scholars.
We have considered following regulations
and posting a sign,
a ceremonial decapitation,
a small scandal, an attack plan,
an ocean of usable air.
At the scene of a murder,
hunger motivates too strongly,
toxic and withering,
as bursts of exhaust roast the air.
There is no art in this,
the drowning of a man,
a slurry of missed opportunity
too far from the sun, and too late
to turn and fly back.
I tread lightly in the sunlight,
a mess of scar tissue and bloody forgetfulness.
I have never fought the urge to animate the dead
(the flames reach out to teach them)
or to break our glass house.
When the screen goes dark,
we see ourselves in true light,
broken in, like old leather.
It's a great deal, you know.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Sufan Stevens, Casimir Pulaski Day

Realization

Day Twenty-Nine: Only one more left.

There is no art in this,
the drowning of a man.
The ripples that stretch out
reach nothing, no rescue
and no dry land nearby.
The hands that hold him down
belong to no one soul,
but the whole consciousness
of some new, imagined
group of dark oppressors.
It is too bad, really,
that he had been hoping
for such a sorry end.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Grizzly Bear, About Face

Extremist sonnet

Day Twenty-Eight: I really liked the curtal sonnet from the other day, so I'm doing another, with a slightly different rhyme scheme. Yay poetry!

Two fires have been lit, both roaring now.
Between them stand two children, born as friends.
The flames reach out to teach them, show them how
One day they each will be the other's end.
Each child receives a spear, some sharpened bough,
The other's dastardly attacks to fend.

The children hold their weapons, purpose clear,
But cannot comprehend how this could be.
"That's him, my dear friend, whom I hold most dear!"
But the flames burn hotter, force them to see:
          "He is not the same."
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
The Tallest Man on Earth, King of Spain

Bestseller

Day Twenty-Seven: Today the prompt is ACTUALLY a picture prompt, and not just me being lazy.

photo by Jean-Baptiste Sinniger

It's a great deal, you know.
Trust me - I'm not a doctor,
but I'm even more powerful.

You'll feel the value right away,
and I'll stand to profit even more.
Just scan that bar code here,

and you'll fit right in, I promise.
We're a very welcoming group,
so long as you've already

done the required shopping.
Just keep in mind that any doubts
are a sign of your own corruption,

not a flaw in the system, of course,
because the system is without flaw,
from my flawless point of view.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Maps & Atlases, The Charm

Enlightenment sonnet

Day Twenty-Six (late): Writing a curtal sonnet, like this one.

We hear it through the walls, so dry and thin,
The universe expanding from within.
Until the day it drags us from this place,
We'll stay and warm the air that is our space -
To understand the power of our thoughts
It holds us in and ties us up in knots.

Although we're forced to stare, to know, to see,
So little makes it through - our minds, they flee.
And often do we hold the softest things
While, slyly, they betray us, tie our strings,
          Keep us contained.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Parov Stelar, Catgroove

The trouble with memory

Day Twenty-Five (late): Write an anaphora - a poem that begins each line with the same phrase.

His hands were broken in, like old leather.
His hands were always in motion, the wings of a hummingbird,
beating, rhythmic.
His hands were empty, non-threatening.
His hands were frantic, like something had been taken from him.
His hands were outstretched, fingers pointing:

There, he said, and pointed to his arm.
There, he said, is where the blood will not come off
There, he said, and pointed to his neck.
There, he said, is where the blood will not come off.
There, he said, and put a finger to his temple.
There, he said, is where she will not come out.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Amerigo Gazaway, Breakadawn

Trickle-down

Day Twenty-Four: Writing a poem about masonry/architecture/etc.

There is something to be said
for the speed with which
they've torn down the pyramid.

First, the top came off,
a ceremonial decapitation,
and the rocks that fell
tumbled onto the heads
of those who built it.

The next few layers of stone
got nervous, shaking from impact,
recognizing the weight
and the consequences
that now rested on their shoulders.

What would change next?

Which cornerstone would give, first?
Which vital foundation
was due to crack, tear apart
like wood splintering into shreds?
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Temples, Shelter Song

Birdwatching?

Day Twenty-Three (late): Picture!

photo by Gregory Halpern

Apart from the coursing traffic, this street has been quiet for some time.
Bursts of exhaust roast the air, keep that pesky ozone in check.
Cars drift aimlessly from one sidewalk to another, uninterested.
Drab as it may be, the birds are still excitable, hooting enthusiastically.
Zoology was never a hobby of mine - they are inconceivably bothersome.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
John Grant, GMF

There

Day Twenty-Two (late): Writing a riff on Arthur Sze's Here.

There eyes water in front of a screen.
There the morning light arrives too early.
There a flock - no, a pack - a pack of birds sounds angrily.
There a great distance.
There a need for a new bridge, something healthy and
        safely suspended above the fray.
There a great fire.
There something else too hot, drowning.
There something dying, emptying into an ocean.
There an open wound.
There a promise.
There a series of broken bones.
There retribution, justification yet unclear.
There a man who has yet to find his way, and yet he
        searches in the dark.
There the final hour.
There the clock that keeps it.
There its dead batteries.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
The Staves, Pay Us No Mind

A dagger to the heart of the city

Day Twenty-One (late): Writing a poem in the style of the New York School.

You come to my mind, then,
as the air in midtown -
toxic and withering,
filled with too many consequences,
too many wrong turns,
and not enough choices.
A death in the family,
and some wonderful rebirth -
trapped in the monotony
of rush hour traffic
and screeching brake pads -
the Columbus Circle of life.
And it has always been official,
not a chance, not a doubt.
Not a second before the lights
all turned to bloody red.
Not a second for me to think,
"Well, maybe, just maybe..."
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Bombay Bicycle Club, Leaving Blues

Conviction

Day Twenty (late): Catch-up haiku!

The depth of our faith
is interesting, in a
broken kind of way.

We have considered
following regulations
and posting a sign.

Just try diving in,
but please do not crash your head
into the bottom.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Yasiin Gaye, Inner City Breathin'

Atlantic turkey wing

Day Nineteen: Pretty interesting - use one of the seashell names here as inspiration for a poem. The one I picked is in the title. Seems like a pretty ridiculous name for a seashell, which, I think, is why I like it so much.

It isn't snowing anymore,
but the cold still creeps in
through the windows,
especially the ones that have
been in need of new insulation
for the past several holidays.

We can feel it prickling our skin,
drifting through our pores and then
pulling them out so our arms
look like vast, dune-pocked beaches.
The meal rests anxiously on the table,
calling quietly out to our eyes.

We're lucky in this family,
to be so unconcerned, so nontrivial,
to have an understanding and
a firm grip on what stands tallest.
No desire to fly away, not now -
hunger motivates too strongly.
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Quick Links and such.

Randomly found this excellent poem by Mark Cugini.

Zach has kept it going in this very honest short poem.
And this excellent one - he's good, folks.

Leonard wrote another good one, as well.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Shad, Stylin'

The newsroom strikes again

Day Eighteen: Just something that came to mind.

Trapped inside the glass,
a bullpen so easily broken
and yet -
how?
Work now means nothing,
the angry voice on the phone
is nothing but a buzzing lie,
trying so hard to convince us
that there is something,
anything,
out there besides our truth.
This is our tragic present,
the state we exist in which
the entire world is looking in
and we are looking out and
we want nothing more than
for them all to walk in,
to throw keyboards and mice
like they were stones,
break our glass house and
let us live again.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Common, Watermelon

All part of the job

Day Seventeen: Don't know what this is about.

At the scene of a murder I
cross my I's and dot my T's
and then I can't tell any of them
apart in the report I'm trying
to compose while my idiot partner
mumbles in my ear, his coffee-
breath flowing in the wind like
radioactive isotopes that won't
dissipate for another few half-lives,
something like months or years,
so until then I am writing incorrect
letters on my clipboard and he
is crinkling his nose and saying
something about "symbology"
and then I am not writing at all,
I am picturing Willem Dafoe
standing on a bloodstained, white
wraparound couch, mocking him.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Passion Pit, Carried Away

A hard day's work

Still Day Sixteen: DOUBLE POST. OH MAN.

Can we manufacture potential?
We would come home every day,
eyes and ears weary from
too many lights and sounds.
We would discard our dirty clothes
and wash our hands for dinner,
tiny, leftover bits of potential
drifting down the drain
in a slurry of missed opportunity.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Kendrick Lamar, A.D.H.D.

Whatever you need to tell yourself

Day Sixteen: Combining the prompt, which is to write every line as a lie, and Three Word Wednesday (which I haven't done in ages). The words are animate, impassioned and pervert.

I have never let money
pervert my decision-making.

I am far too moral for that.
I have never felt the desire

to scream loudly from a rooftop,
to mock those I disagree with.

I am far too understanding for that.
I have never been so impassioned

that I almost ruined a relationship -
that would mean I argued against

my better judgement, which I also
would never, ever do, since judgement

is an unquestionable strength of mine.
I am far too reasonable for that.

I have never fought the urge to
animate the dead, to bring them back

for a good slap in the face, to ask,
how they could justify leaving the world

in such disorder? My perspective is
much too realistic for such trivialities.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Yasiin Gaye, Peculiar Mathematics
(mashup of Mos and Marvin - spectacular)

Infusion

Day Fifteen: Using yesterday's prompt, which was to write each line as a question, except the last.

Where did the first flake fall?
What was it made of?
Who caught it on their tongue?
Did they yell?
Did they vomit?
What new flavor did they discover?
Did they write it down?
Is there a recipe we can follow?
Could we recreate the magic?
Would we want to?
Are there any strings to grasp at?
What dangling beauty can we pull down?
And how to preserve it?
How to keep it clean, keep it safe?

The chemicals blend just enough to mask the taste.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Pharoahe Monch & Black Thought, Rapid Eye Movement

Counterpoints, ten paces, dawn

Day Fourteen: Another self-appointed picture prompt.

photo by Tom Hoying

There's a blank stare across the field,
drilled deep and left as a cavity, black
pits or something else just as ominous.

She brought him here for a reason,
and as of yet he is still too afraid to ask,

what will signal the depth of her anger?

Their silence has remained vast, unbroken,
yards of quiet, empty space between them

and an ocean of usable air - it has become
a question of, who will take advantage first?
Now that the requisite number of paces

has been reached, and the fog has lifted
from the frozen, crunching grass beneath

their feet, whose gunshot will ring loudest?
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Quick Links, NaPoWriMo edition.

Zach - you killed it with this one, my friend.

An amusing noun-switch poem from Leonard.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Two Door Cinema Club, Something Good Can Work

(Un)certain terms

Day Thirteen: Sad but true.

I don't daydream anymore.
My mind craves the blank
spaces between moments
of stress and high-impact
nonsense. My thought
processes feel like a sad
series of arthritic joints,
cartilage worn away - now
just a mess of scar tissue
and bloody forgetfulness.
Something is most certainly
missing. Something I had
once, something I still need,
something fanatical and
fantastic and horribly simple.
And something so easily
retrieved, if I could only
find the time. It would be
as elementary as closing the
rubber-fisted handles of a
pair of bolt-cutters, hearing
the padlock bounce angrily
to the ground and knowing
I'm back where I belong.
If only I could find the time.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Postal Service, Such Great Heights

At the end of winter

Day Twelve: No prompt. Just poem.

Two chairs sit by the pond.
One has been flipped over,
used improperly and left as
evidence, obstinate green paint
deeply conspicuous against
the melting spring snow.

Two ducks sit by the pond.
They were fooled by the early
approach of warm weather -
now they find themselves
in limbo. Too far from the sun,
too late to turn and fly back.

Two trees fell into the pond.
Their roots reach out from the ice
like tiny, crippled fingers, tortured
by the pain of the freezing cold.
They'll sit and rot until summer.
No use for wet wood in a fire.

One person walks by the pond.
She stops and rights the toppled
chair, agitating the ducks. They
make angry noises and waddle
to the far side. She sits in the chair
and lets their racket fade to static.

Fast and blank

Day Eleven: Using another prompt from the Found Poetry Review: univocalism. This means the poem can only use one vowel throughout.

Afar and always happy -
a small scandal, an attack plan.

A walk far away, a brass champ,

smart and a bar apart - warm scars
grasp back at stark shards, all sparks.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
The Shins, Australia

Knowledge of the system

Day Ten: Today's prompt is weird, so I found another one I liked better. I'll be writing a "snowball," which requires the first word to have only one letter, the second two, the third three, and so on. This one is quite good.

A
by-
the-
road-
stand
murder
brought
loophole
avoidance
pronounced
consequence.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Local Natives, Breakers

Postcards from Italy

Day Nine: Take any randomized playlist and use five consecutive song titles in a poem.

She sent the family
postcards from Italy
to tell us how well
she was doing, how many
people she had met.

She wrote us about
the comfort she found in
the shade of an old pine,
one that grew outside the
window of the house
she lived in - how the
scent of the tree blossomed
in the midday heat. She
said it reminded her of
Chicago - picnics in the
forest preserve and the
speckling sunlight on the
wide-brimmed hats
Grandad used to wear.

She wrote us when she
was homesick, when she
wished she could get on
the next big jet plane
back to O'Hare, step off
into the sweet, doughy
scent of an Auntie Anne's,
cinnamon sugar coating
her grateful fingers and lips.
She wrote us to say
that she was coming home.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Beirut, Postcards From Italy

If the sky could hear us

Day Eight: Rewriting another poem - If the ocean had a mouth, by Marie-Elizabeth Mali.

Would it listen, our screams
all hellfire and roaring,
our thoughts scattered
to the wind?

It would stay still, patient,
blink its eyes full of stars.
No one hears as much.

Would the sky ignore us,
leave us to our impunity?

Would it shroud itself
in the fog of a humid morning,
or would it come forth,
shining it's proudest blue
and ultraviolet torridity
to prove attentiveness?

What could we really say
to capture its recognition
when there is an entire planet
to give heed to?

All this fullness
of thought. Wide-eyed
lovers. Broken minds.

Within its clouds the frozen raindrops,
the potential of creation, shards of life,
anathema to those who cry out.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Step Brothers, More Wins

The museum

Day Seven: No prompt for me today. Just writing.

photo by Michael Rudd

There is a world behind the glass,
                                                      set apart,
                                                      left for us to question
as we run our hands down
the cold smoothness,
ponder the meaning of the streaks
we leave behind - oil and dirt,
something majestic like
a brand new work of art,
a masterpiece - bright canvas
and dark brushstrokes we will
hang up behind the glass,
                                                      set apart,
                                                      left for others to question.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Dag Savage, Van Gogh

Selective

Day Six: The observational poem, written using verbs, nouns and adjectives you see looking out your window.

The grass is still damp
when I take thirteen steps
to ground level and smell
dinner simmering downstairs.
I tread lightly in the sunlight,
bereft of my memories,
for I have left them indoors.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Pusha T & Kendrick Lamar, Nosetalgia

The bliss of modern construction

Day Five: The Golden Shovel. Basically, the last word of each line is a word from another poem, in order, so that you can read that other poem by going down each line of mine. You'll see what I mean. In this poem is the last stanza of W.H. Auden's As I Walked Out One Evening.

A roof has no concept of what rises above it,
and none of what happens below it, or what was
here before blueprints, when nature's hour was late,
when men put wood and brick together in the late
hours of summer, when the clouds grew colder in
the night skies of the northeastern lands. The
roof has no concept of what it hides in the evening,
what the human eye yearns to understand: The
grandest mystery borne in the arms of lovers
or the mouths of scholars. What, really, do they
know? They can tell us nothing about when we were
but an idea in the mind of a builder, a thought long gone.

A street has no concept of what passes upon it, the
usual traffic, speeding up and slowing down, racing clocks
to a deadline, to a delivery. It would be no better had
we learned from the past, for the past had ceased
to teach us anything when we stopped listening. Their
arguments and justifications count for nothing, chiming
bells in a city overrun with mechanical noises, and
the street is oblivious to this as well. Nor does it know the
taste of blood that has spilled upon it, drops of deep
hatred that have fallen here and collected in a swollen river
of interrupted dreams. The street doesn't know who ran
and left muddy footprints on it while the sky turned on.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Ab-Soul & Kendrick Lamar, ILLuminate

I live in the summer

Day Four: Writing a "lune." It's a version of a haiku that counts words instead of syllables, using 3/5/3 construction.

When the screen
goes dark, we see ourselves
in true light.

A binge session
no less dangerous than one
of hard drugs.

Addictive? Of course,
and so easily accessed, too.
What a life.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Isaiah Rashad, Tranquility

War is over

Day Three: Skipping the prompt - writing what came to me this morning.

It's the obstinance of a few that has brought us this far,
trapped between a reprehensible past and a bright future.

They've moved us to tears, those few, and our saltwater
mixes with the seas at our feet, a grand disappearance

and an even greater absence - each drop a great singularity.
There is a battle light that emanates from those living,

a signal to the stars that we are still here and improving,
reasons to spare us from the inevitable apocalypse.

Any who pray have found their solace here, at night,
draped in the comfort of the still air and the emptiness,

meanings bountiful in the occasional outburst of a cricket
or the delayed reaction of some far-off thundercloud.

And the rest? They, too, know peace - no longer
do they waver in their endorsement of the divine,

because now the divine is everywhere - because now,
the divine needs not be prayed to. Now the divine is real.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
White Denim, At Night In Dreams

The death of the Hound of Ulster

Day Two: Write a poem based on myth - but not Greek or Roman. I chose Cúchulainn, a hero of Irish mythology.

Conspirators abound, and their history
ties their black hearts together.
But who could blame them? Stories say
that the object of their vengeance
has no heart at all - they say he is
the embodiment of hell itself,
of a nature so driven by bloodlust
that his frenzy renders him a monster,
an artist of violence and rage.

Wood is tipped with iron, and each
is thrown with furious adrenaline,
born in the hatred of a pained heart.
The raven flies overhead, and observes
the advance of death upon the warrior,
a man alone at the fall - and when he
ties himself standing, the only honor left,
the blight of a bird alights on him,
and his enemies know he is truly dead.
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Quick Links - to poetry, of course.

Leonard P. Wilson has jumped on the NaPoWriMo train, as well.

Zach has another excellent short poem.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Bombay Bicycle Club, Ivory & Gold

NaPoWriMo begins again!

And we're off! The first prompt of the month is to write a poem based on a quote generated by The Bibliomancy Oracle. Here's what I got:

The shortest distance
between points A and B
has always been a gentle
tug of the heartstrings.

Those who know best
have endeavored, for ages,
to put them on a map,
to make them anatomy.

They will succeed,
someday - most certainly.
But until then, we each
question our own value.

What, then, is the worth
of an empty pair of shoes?
When, then, is the day
we all shall know fire?
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Anti-Lilly & Phoniks, Blue In Green

There is a saying in another language

There is a saying in another language
and it is beautiful to hear, the way
the syllables seem to drift aimlessly
like leaves being swept away
in the torrent of a swollen autumn river,
the rain long since fallen,
but the scent of nature strong and pure.

There is a saying in another language
and it is beautiful to hear, though it is
somewhat difficult to translate.
We have worked tirelessly
to uncover the hidden meanings and
have found, very disappointingly,
that now it is just dry, old, English words.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Oscar Isaac, Fare Thee Well

Performance review

photo by Kevin Trageser

Have you ever had one of those weeks? Everyone knows what this means. Arthur was having that week. The one that could have inspired the saying. The one that could color the lens through which we see all of our "those weeks" when our boss brings his bad home life to the office or no one else is around and we get stuck with all the work. Arthur's week was like all of our weeks had a week of their own.

He wanted to be somewhere else, of course. He had been online all morning trying to decide where he would like to be. Not one of the places he saw stood out to him. Hawaii was beautiful, New York was exciting, Europe was intriguing. But none of them offered exactly what he wanted.

Arthur wanted to be somewhere so pretty that it all looked fake. He wanted to believe that he had been transported to a make believe place, in a painting perhaps, or a photograph of a movie set - all plaster and fine, detailed craftsmanship. He wanted to ride the escalator out of an airport somewhere and be so distracted that his shoelaces get caught in the machinery. He wouldn't even care, he decided - he would just ditch the shoes and spend his vacation barefoot.

Vacation, though? Would that be good enough? Arthur imagined that even a month away from work would be tainted by the constant thoughts of what he had left behind - or, more depressingly, what would be waiting for him like a old, ruined predator that he could never outrun. He hoped that wherever he ended up going, there would be an escalator built like an MC Escher painting - an impossible loop that he would never have to step off of. He could have his meals delivered.

Arthur's Outlook calendar snapped him out of his daydreaming with an ironically joyful ping. He crinkled his face in disappointment and gathered his things. Meeting with the boss. It would go poorly, no doubt.

Arthur's boss spent the meeting yelling about expense reports and unpaid vendors and late shipments. He had brought his bad home life with him to the meeting. It stuck out in the fog of anger like a massive, shining iceberg. Arthur tired quickly of all these subjects. They were all real things - things you took at face value, things you could see and touch and had to get done. Arthur didn't want real anymore. He wondered what it would take to get a few days off. Even if it wasn't long enough, it would be better than nothing.

Arthur's boss noticed him drifting back into dream world, and the focus of his distaste shifted from matters of business to his listless employee. He yelled and yelled, so much that Arthur stopped hearing anything he was saying. Arthur ignored the tirade and reached back to his pants pocket, removed his wallet and slid his work ID out of the pocket it had occupied for the past eight years. He watched the slight dent it had made in the leather collapse slowly, like an open air mattress. He stared at the picture on the front of the ID, noticing the shape, intensity and youth of the smile he gave the photographer that day. A similar smile then came to Arthur's lips. Arthur's boss yelled louder. Arthur's smile grew wider. This was going to be an excellent trip.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Fleet Foxes, The Plains/Bitter Dancer

Latency

I've been murdered
and every step is fire,
treading on
brand new asphalt
in the Grand Canyon.

All I want now is
a solid workout -
push-ups until my arms
no longer function,
until the only movement

I can manage is
a feeble thumbs up,
enough to tell
the forlorn paramedic
I forgive his lateness.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Xavier Rudd, Messages

On the edge of a knife

Oxygen was only life
until some idiot
introduced it to jet fuel.
Now it is combustion,
a great trigger
waiting to be pulled
as it eases, quietly,
in and out of your lungs,
the breath of millions
clutched by a breeze.
And all it will take
is for one junkie
to scratch that itch,
turn that key,
press that button,
light that biggest match,
and what was life
will all be ruined -
will all be set to burn.
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Playing on my iTunes at this very moment:
Jamie N Commons, Wish You Were Here